goddessoflubbock wrote:It is perfectly normal for a 10 year old to see life-changing events in relation to how they impact their own lives. And it did put a big change in your daily life.
Yes, I agree. Up to a certain age, children will experience a life-changing event in a very egocentric way-- how it affects them.
I sometimes feel guilty about it, but the circumstance surrounding my parents divorce when I was about 5/6, back then I only thought how events would affect me. Not in a callous way, but the child's brain just doesn't really have any perspective but their own. And perhaps moreso for autistics.
Point being, you may still feel guilty, Kevin, about not "properly" mourning your mother's death in an adult fashion, like you would now, but that's just how kids are. It doesn't mean you didn't love her, that's just how kids deal with death.