by ukenkerl on Wed Nov 21, 2007 11:30 pm
mopodile,
One thing I always hated was that spoken language is so imprecise. There are so MANY things that just can't be explained. I spoke to my mother once about how I reacted to people, etc... as a little kid, and she said I seemed pretty normal but sometimes would be in "my own world". I have to wonder even what SHE means. Her perception sometimes IS off.
Sometimes I DO start to get glimmers of another world that is REAL! It is like I am seeing with my eyes, color, etc.... That is rare but that might be simply because I usually don't let myself go very far because it is usually not in a private area, and nobody else ever let me go too far. USUALLY it is just a sensation. STILL, it CAN end up seeming VERY real. I have whole experiences where I have seen, smelled, built things. At 7 years old, I had memories of building aircraft, flying them, etc...!
I imagine it is kind of like Benji sometimes sees because, like her, I tend not to see faces. I may see books, but not writing. I could be in that world and doing different things, and see people acting seemingly autonomously, and even physically react to it, and yet seem awake lucid, and be programming even here! Still, vision in that area is more a sense than real vision.
I haven't had imaginary friends, outside of my little world, so to speak. I haven't don't anything like pretend to be anyone else(outside of a little acting). I haven't imagined that any toys were anything other than they were. HECK, I couldn't even get into playing house, not that I wanted to, but with a young girl friend that DOES, what can you do? But I guess I do have a concious imagination. My subconcious certainly does also.
Benji,
You are probably right, but I think I review dealings with others more than most. I try to analyze everything and see possible outcomes. I try to err on caution. I rarely miss something. But I haven't seen NTs do all that great. And it seems that FEW, if any, review things as I do. Some autistics DO though! HECK, YOU have indicated HERE about how you have reasoned things out. Your reasoning wasn't off.