Adhoc- I know how you feel with not wanting to deal with people, sometimes I get very shut off mentally, too, and just don't want to have to handle any type of interactions. In response to what you've said about my posts, I suppose I feel a little awkward, but don't worry, I'm also a little flattered I guess, haha. I also don't have tons of time to read through everything here, and even when I do have the time I often can't focus well enough to sit down and read through all the posts, either, because everyone here tends to put a lot of time and thought into their posts, which requires a lot of attention and thought to read (which is a good thing, of course, it just becomes rather tiring).
Benji- I'm not sure what has me feeling that way, I guess it's just something that comes and goes. I can't think of something specific that triggered it.
Sluagh- About the disclaimers, hahaha, yes, I actually thought that as I was typing it.
Renaeden- It's not the only reason I haven't posted as much, I've just been busier in general also, so I don't want you to get the wrong impression that I am feeling terrible about this place or anything, because I'm not really. And thank you, I like you too, and I do like to read your posts. They tend to stand out to me for some reason.
Sophist- Haha, I'd think it odd if you didn't feel comfortable here, I know you don't act like it but for some reason I think of this as "your place" because you've started it and tend to run things a bit around here.
Odeon- Thank you for the reassurances. I do like it here. I guess I just go through these periods of feeling like I'm just in the background and not being heard, and not connecting. I have a lot of moments where that happens, quite literally, in my real life, so I guess I just start to feel like it's happening everywhere, maybe.
It's really odd, but I like what you've said, "I think most of us have experienced that feeling of not belonging, and that, more than a label, is probably what identifies us."
I find it so odd yet also rather reassuring that this is how our group has come to be and is.
"I am I." - Ayanami Rei