Thank you all for your responses, I've been reading them throughout the day, you all have brought up very good points.
I think Benji said that here she feels like she doesn't have to worry so much about how others think. I feel a little bit like I do do that here, and it may be because like you said, Benji, the not having the diagnosis thing. I'm not sure though. I think maybe I should try to relax a little, though in that regard, which is to say, to be a bit less worried about saying or doing the wrong sort of thing. You are all a very accepting bunch and it's kind of silly of me to not realize that and behave accordingly.
Also, Benji, you often seem to think your posts aren't relevant, you always tend to have sort of a disclaimer at the end, but I think most of the time you don't need to worry about that, because what you've said is perfectly relevant
Goddess, I always tend to think of you as being a bit of a unique voice on here, not to say we aren't all rather different in the first place, but your perspective is quite a bit different from many of ours and I find that both refreshing and interesting. I think it helps to have a slightly more outside view on some of the issues here, and you seem to be very good at seeing things from both an NT and an ASD perspective.
Sluagh- You thought of me as one of the "in-crowd"? Hahaha it's a really funny thing to read, as I've never been in an "in-crowd" in my entire life. Sorry, I don't mean that to be insulting, it just kind of made me chuckle to myself. I guess it's nice to be perceived that way, though I don't feel like there really is an "in-crowd" here, since the forum is rather small, everyone who posts *is* the "in-crowd" to me.
I guess I've just been feeling pretty distant and disconnected and it's more an internal thing than an external one. I'm certainly happy to read that most of you seem to think that even if we don't all "fit" together, we all sort of belong here anyway, and that also includes me.
It seems like many of you all feel like the "outsider" on the fringes also. It's kind of funny to have all these "outsiders" making up the group, like we all just sort of wandered in accidentally and started talking to each other.
And there I go again, I'm not even sure what I'm trying to say anymore. I think I've just been feeling kind of down on myself, which happens from time to time, and it has extended here also. I feel like there's more that I want to convey, but I can't get a clear grasp on it, just writing this message has been a bit of an effort and I don't think things have come out totally right, but hopefully whatever this mental block is it will eventually clear up a bit.