When I needed it would have been 30+ of my 37 years ago, really! Certain amounts of delays are understandable; I don't expect any magic wands to wave all the problems away or anything but it's just I really ran out of ways to even barely manage & cope some time ago. My real concern isn't that I might drum up the courage to take the supposed 'easy way out' but that I'll lose the plot & go out to hurt some relative innocent. Not that it would do any more good to go out & hurt the people more responsible, anyway but I see no way to anticipate the results of going crazy. I mean, supposedly, if a 'normal' person goes a few days without some meaningful contact with some other human being, they're likely to struggle a lot. Granted, I'm less sociable than most but I don't recall ever managing anything I'd call meaningful contact! Any time I try to talk about anything important to me, there's always some 'reason' it's not appropriate & I can't see most of what I'm saying as too deep or complicated for most people to understand. Officially, I'm only slightly above average intelligence & I really don't think most people I knew were stupid. Sorry, nowhere better or obviously so to post this.